Saturday, February 21, 2015

Baby Elliott: 8 Months!


In just four short months, my baby will be a year old. How is this happening already?! I know every post I say "I can't believe how big he is getting", or "where did my little baby go?" or something along those lines, but writing this blog every month makes me that much more aware of how fast the days and weeks fly by. Of course, in the midst of them I feel like the days drag on and there's always something that I need to do around the house while Elliott is refusing to let me put him down (yay for the ergo!). In those moments, I look forward to the days that he will be more independent and will think vacuuming or using the swiffer is a game. But when he's asleep on my chest, or giggling uncontrollably at the silly faces I make, I feel like my heart could burst and I want to freeze those moments in time and keep him this little forever. 

A few weeks ago, Elliott got really sick and started throwing up every 15 minutes. He was so miserable and it was agonizing to watch him. He had never thrown up before this, and the look on his face was a combination of confusing, misery, and fear. We were both so scared, because we didn't know what was going on and what could possibly make him throw up so frequently. We were able to see the pediatrician right away, and he said to monitor him for the next couple hours and bring him back if he was still throwing up. I cried at one point because it was incredibly difficult to watch him so helpless and miserable and not be able to do anything to make it stop. We just kept praying that God would heal him and rid him of whatever was making him so sick. Thankfully, it passed almost as quickly as it came on, and within a couple of hours he was resting, and by that evening he was back to his normal self. We still have no idea what made him so sick, but are thankful God healed him so quickly! 
getting some much needed sleep after a rough day

Elliott has been growing so much, and hitting some developmental milestones. He sits up on his own now and is very stable. He even tries to get into a crawling position, but isn't quite stable with that just yet. He plays with his toys and has moved beyond just his favored water bottle. He will eat a few bites of solid foods once or twice a day, but still favors nursing. Hopefully in the coming months he realizes solid foods are just as tasty! 

Here are some stats on our little munchkin:


Currently Elliott enjoys: 
- sitting up on his own 
- silly faces 
- chewing on whatever he can get his hands on
- playing with his stacking pyramid
- saying "dada" 
- growling and sounding like a gremlin
- kissing his mommy (also my favorite, for obvious reasons)


Elliott couldn't care less for: 
- the vacuum 
- 98% of baby food 
- being left alone for more than 3 seconds 








Monday, January 19, 2015

Baby Elliott: 7 Months!


Prepare to be overwhelmed with cute baby pictures! Over the holidays, we drove up to Oregon for 2 weeks to spend Christmas & New Years with my family. We had been anticipating this trip since I was pregnant and we realized Martin got 6 weeks of paternity leave through Apple, that he could take them 2 weeks at a time, at any point throughout the first year. Having never been able to take time off from work since I've been living in California, it was a big deal we were finally able to make it home for the holidays! I had missed Christmas dinner at my grandparents, and Oregon winter weather, and Dutch Brothers coffee, and Marco's Place tacos . . . I was counting down the days since I was about 7months pregnant ;) 
he loves his toes

Our trip was full of time with family & friends, board games, good coffee, the best tacos in the Pacific Northwest, and no sales tax. Elliott adapted really well to the colder weather, but had a tough time sleeping through the night the first few nights, probably because of all of the traveling. Speaking of traveling, he did really on the car ride up! He slept a majority of the drive, and we would just stop every couple of hours for him to get a diaper change & nurse. He would only fuss for a bit before falling asleep; the last hour, however, was definitely when he was over it. He cried almost the entire last hour until we made it to my grandparents house in Eugene. It was a rough way to end the trip, but at the same time we were thankful it was only at the end. 
eating great grandma Roeske's face
Christmas morning with grandma & grandpa Roeske

It was so fun getting to see Elliott with all of my family. He and my mom instantly became best friends, and he was always smiling and charming everyone he met. I loved getting to see my parents & grandparents fawn over him, since that is something I really miss about living away from my family - that grandparent relationship. It was also nice to have a couple of date nights just Martin & I, since my parents would basically kick us out of the house so they could hang out with their grandbaby ;) 
four generations! 
Grandma is Elliott's best friend

It was so hard to leave at the end of the trip, but I'm so grateful for the time we had and tried to soak up every hour we had with family. I miss my siblings & parents up north, but we have roots here in California now that would make it so hard to move. That's the bittersweet reality of having loved ones in so many different places, and that's one of the reasons I am so thankful to live in a time where video chatting is easily accessible! 
littlest Duck fan! 
all smiles with great grandpa Shirk

This post feels a bit sporadic, at best, and I blame the lack of sleep & my only half a cup of coffee at 6 AM this morning. I'm sure the photos are what everyone enjoys most anyway, so I'll give some of his 7 month updates & leave you with more pictures ;) 


Currently, Elliott Enjoys: 
- Rolling from his belly onto his back 
- FaceTime with grandma & grandpa Foster 
- chatting - usually "bababa" and "mamama" so maybe mama will be coming soon? ;) 
- playing with a water bottle or the tags on his toys 
- bouncing in his bouncer 
- attempting to sit on his own - he makes it about 10-15 seconds before toppling over 
- anything with mom & dad 
"you mean I'm not supposed to eat my presents?"

Elliott couldn't care less for: 
- Being in the car at night 
- Loud noises (the vacuum cleaner, blender, and hand dryers) 
- Being put down when he's tired

He's still the happiest little hippo, and I still can't believe he's really ours! Here's a video of our little chatterbox :) 

Saturday, January 3, 2015

"Follow Me"

Many of you probably knew that this blog was originally to track our progress in pursuing missions ministry in Argentina. In the summer of 2012, many of you generously provided for us to take an exploratory trip there, where we visited a few different cities, learned about the need for more missionaries in the city of Corrientes, and began prayerfully pursuing ministry in Corrientes. After a few months, we turned in our missionary applications to Cornerstone church, our home church here in Simi Valley, with the intention of partnering with Cornerstone to be sent out as missionaries to Corrientes. And then . . . well, not much seemed to happen. We did the missions assessment through Cornerstone in April of 2014, which was very encouraging and affirming for our desire to serve as missionaries overseas, and we met some great people who are also missionally minded during that weekend. We were waiting for an answer from Cornerstone, as to whether or not we could move to the next phase of preparing for ministry in Corrientes. The answer was "not yet" - not no, not yes; just not yet.

Some of you, who have been tracking with us over the years, have often asked us "so . . . whatever happened to Argentina? Are you guys still going?" to which we would answer, "we hope so!" or "yes, we're just kind of in a waiting spot right now." A lot of that was due to the Global Team going through some major structural and personnel changes, which we didn't know of at the time. They were re-evaluating their philsophy of ministry, and trying to determine what would be best as a church for sending out missionaries overseas. Through many months of prayer and deliberation, the team came to the conclusion that it would be best to send out a team of missionaries to a specific location, rather than individuals to various locations. This is important for longevity of ministry, team relationships, and for the church in Simi to continue a faithful partnership with missionaries serving overseas - to stay connected and know who they are supporting. These decisions were not easy, and not approached flippantly, and after we had a chance to meet with the Global team and hear about their heart behind these decisions, we were completely on board and supportive of their discernment.

 From the very beginning, when we first heard about the opportunity to go to Argentina, both Martin and I felt like through prayer we didn't have a yes or no, but rather a "follow Me". And so we did - we went to Argentina, and came home, and continued praying for direction. The answer stayed the same - not yes, not no, but "follow Me." So we did, and for that time, following God's leading was to take the next step to partner with Cornerstone in going to Argentina. Even then, we knew that Encompass, our missions agency, was encouraging the national church to send their own missionaries into Corrientes. So while we would move forward with plans for Corrientes, that could change if nationals stepped in. We understood, and were still holding loosely to the possibility of Corrientes, knowing that we would move in that direction, and God may take us elsewhere if He wanted to.

I didn't think "elsewhere" would be quite as contrasting as it seems He is directing us now. The Global Team came to two countries they wanted to send missionaries to: Poland, and Japan. Neither of these are in South America (duh), and neither of these countries speak spanish (duh). When we first learned this, my heart sank a little. I always believed my fluency in spanish was for missions, and specifically for Latin America; why would God seem to close the door then, and re-direct us to completely different places? I have no interest in Japan, personally; I hate sushi, can't stand fish, and the idea of learning Japanese is intimidating, to say the least. And Poland? It's freezing, Polish is just as hard as Japanese, and right next door to Russia. Which is also freezing. I just got used to this California climate!

I was hard-hearted, and praying that God would still send us to Argentina. Or at least Bolivia. Or somewhere where I loved the culture, the people, and the language was already my second language. Still, His answer remained the same: "follow Me." But WHERE?! Does it have to be one of these places?! I don't WANT to go to Poland or Japan! Missionaries are still needed in Latin America - we just heard about unreached people groups in Mexico during our Perspectives class! So they still need missionaries there. So can't we go somewhere like that?

In mid-November the Global team invited us to a dinner to hear from the Yzbick's, who are currently serving in Poland. Martin and I were going for the free meal and to be supportive of other missionaries, truthfully. at the time, we were still praying that God would somehow allow us to continue our pursuit of missions in Argentina because, well, we had already been on this road for the last two and a half years. But we wanted to be supportive of others who were serving faithfully overseas. At this time we hadn't heard yet from the Global Team about how they came to decide on Poland or Japan, we just knew they had made that decision. So hearing their heart behind those choices was huge for us. and hearing from the Yzbick's about their ministry and their need for a team was also very eye-opening and moving for us. For me especially to hear from Jen Yzbick about her desire to go back to Iraq, where she served for years as a single woman, and how God changed her heart and directed their family to Poland. I related so much to her story, and God knew that was what I needed to hear.

God is of course gracious and kind in how He works on our hearts. Through our Perspectives class on the World Christian Movement, I learned more about the various people groups and nations that need the Gospel, and heard from missionaries who served in the Middle East and other places - not because they loved the culture, or the climate, or even the people initially - but because they loved Jesus and understood His heart for the lost, and were willing to go into unknown territory for the sake of the Gospel. One of our pastors at Cornerstone gave a sermon about how the chasm Jesus was willing to cross for us was so vast and expansive, we need to be willing to take small steps out of our comfort zone for the sake of the Gospel. While I was feeling convicted, he even said specifically that some of us need to be willing to learn a new language for the sake of the Gospel. Nice and obvious, right?

Throughout the last few weeks, God has transformed so much of how I approach the question of "where" when it comes to missions. It's not about the location I prefer, or the climate, or the language, or the culture. It comes down to: am I willing to follow wherever He leads us, even if that involves laying down my personal preferences, for the sake of the Gospel? I could relate to Jonah, who really did NOT want to go to Nineveh, but that's where God told Him to go. And when he fought so hard against it, it just didn't work out for him. When he finally said "ok. I think I should probably go to Nineveh", God said "that sounds like a good plan to Me" ;)

So when you ask the question, "whatever happened to Argentina?" our answer, as of the last few weeks, is this: it looks like God may be calling us elsewhere. We're still not entirely sure on that, and are seeking His direction fervently through prayer. We would love for you to pray with us, as this is a major change for us from what we were initially considering. But we are trying to follow Him - wherever He may call us - and to set aside our personal agendas. He has a plan, and we know He will be faithful to guide us and provide a way for us, wherever that may be.

Martin will be going on an exploratory trip with our Global Team from Cornerstone to Poland at the end of February/beginning of March this year. It will be a 9-day trip to Lodz (pronounced "Woo-dge"), where the Yzbicks are, to look into the possibility of joining the Yzbick's in ministry there. Elliott and I will not be joining them, since Elliott is still nursing, and the travel & time change would be very difficult with an 8 month old baby. I'm excited for what God will do during the team's time there, and look forward to being able to share with all of you what they learn during that time.

We will be raising financial support for Martin's plane ticket, and would love to send you a letter with information on how you can partner with us, if you would like to know more about the trip and what the team will be doing. Of course, we desire more than anything that you would pray with us over these next few months: for direction, for wisdom & discernment, and for a willingness in both of us to go wherever God directs us next. It can be hard to follow when we really don't know where that may be, but one thing is always true: God is faithful. God has a purpose and a plan. We can trust Him.

Friday, December 19, 2014

Baby Elliott: 6 months!


We've made it through half of our first year with our little guy! So many things about him have now become familiar: his thin-lipped "old man" smile, his contagious laughter and high-pitched excited squeals, his chubby little fingers and Winston Churchill-esque double chin. That chin has got to be one of my favorite things about him; it's just so funny, and one of the first things new people notice about him. On Sunday, a friend commented on how he likes to refer to Elliott as Winston because of that fat little chin, and Martin & I thought it was such a perfect comparison.
I love his little frowny face!
master of disguise!

As familiar as he is in many ways, he always has new quirks about him that bring out his personality that will come out randomly. One day a couple weeks ago, he was laying on his playmat, and just started babbling as if he was having a conversation with one of his toys that hangs above him. I was watching him and couldn't stop laughing; it was the first time I'd heard him "talk" in a way that sounded   most like a normal sentence, and the way he was enunciating was adorable! I took a quick video so I could send it to Martin.
he loves his daddy!

Speaking of videos, my phone lately has been telling me I don't have any memory space on my phone, so I asked Martin to look at it, to which he informed me I have over 1,500 pictures & videos and it's clogging up my phone. As much as I know I can transfer everything to my external hard drive, part of me doesn't want to because I enjoy going and looking at his newborn pictures so often. So much has changed, and it always puts a smile on my face to see the progress my sweet boy has made in just these 6 months alone. God has given us such an incredible gift, and His lovingkindness is so apparent to me through this new stage of life.
what's not to love about this sweet little man?!

Random chatter aside, let's move on to some 6-month-old tidbits! It's hard to come up with a list of what he likes and doesn't like, because in general he is a pretty happy little guy. So I'll just try to come up with some highlights.

Currently, Elliott enjoys:
- Bouncing in his bouncer - he can go in that thing for 30 minutes or longer, nonstop! No joke.
- Being fawned over - he loves his fans ;)
- crinkly toys
- anything he can put in his mouth
- smiling at strangers - this one is a big change! He is still wary of some new people, but mostly he will put on a sweet little grin when people come up to him and want to see how cute he is ;)
- chatting with his playmat friends, or mommy & daddy. Or anyone who will listen, really.
- being read to - he's not quite into Lord of the Rings yet, but enjoys Moo, Baa, La La La. Someday ;)
I woke up like this. 

Elliott couldn't care less for:
- When mommy or daddy leaves the room
- The vacuum - this one is brand new. If he's awake, I can't vacuum because the loudness freaks him out. Ironically, he sleeps through it if I vacuum during his naps.
- Dogs. Could be other pets, but thus far he really doesn't seem to like any of our neighbors dogs or Martin's mom's dogs.

Lastly, I had to share a few of the pictures from our Christmas photo sesh a few weeks back. I thought it would be so cute to put Elliott in a box gift-wrapped, and he didn't disappoint!






Wednesday, November 19, 2014

Baby Elliott: 5 Months!


When I look back on the months as they pass by, it strikes me just how much changes in just a few short weeks. Elliott is constantly growing and changing, and I already look back at his pictures from when he was a newborn and miss those early days. I take pictures & video of him constantly, and I still feel like time is passing me by far too quickly!
(look at that double chin!)

One thing that baffles me is how big he is. He's only 5 months and already 19 pounds! He is exclusively breastfeeding, so apparently milk does his body good ;) He has recently started paying more attention to when Martin & I eat, so probably in the next few months we will start introducing him to pureed veggies & fruits. Until then, clearly he's getting enough to eat, so I'm in no rush to start him on solids.

Some of you already saw the pictures of Elliott from Halloween, where I made him a Stay-Puft Marshmallow Man costume. I knew months ago that I wanted to make him that costume, since he is just so pudgy! It seemed perfect for him, but the downside was I couldn't find any places that sold the costume. So I looked up different blogs of moms who had made their babies into Stay-Puft Marshmallow Men and what they did to make the costumes, and came up with my own rendition. I used a bunch of Martin's old white undershirts, cut them up into strips, and used a  hot glue gun to create the detachable pieces: two arms, two legs, and a body piece. I stuffed those with pillow stuffing, and made his hat & bib out of felt, puff paint, and ribbon. We went trick-or-treating with our community group, and all of the houses we went to loved his costume! They instantly recognized him, although most of the kids had no idea who he was, since Ghostbusters was long before their time. Martin was able to borrow a Ghostbuster costume from one of his co-workers, so that was fun to have a theme for both of them. I was planning on wearing my Hobbit outfit my mom made me two years ago, but as it turns out, I don't quite fit into that costume yet ;) maybe next Halloween!

We don't have too many stories for this month, so on to some 5-month-old updates for Elliott!

Currently, Elliott enjoys:
- attempting to roll over (he gets stuck on his side most times)
- standing in his bouncer (hasn't quite figured out how to bounce yet)
- trying to form words while chatting with mommy & daddy
- being read to
- taking baths and being naked
- scooting around on his belly
- walking around while carried in the ergo
(nothing better)

Elliott couldn't care less for:
- putting on his PJ's
- putting on any clothes, for that matter
- when he can hear mommy's voice, but can't see her


Friday, October 17, 2014

Baby Elliott: 4 months!


Little Elliott is 4 months old now, and it is so fun to watch him continue to grow and discover the world around him! My little honey just gets sweeter with each day; lately he enjoys laying in my lap and staring up at me, smiling. It melts my heart every time! He just stares and studies me, as if he's trying to memorize every freckle on my face. He is sitting up in the bumbo constantly, and enjoys watching me fold laundry or clean up while hanging out in that little chair. Makes it easier to get the chores done around the house! He also started using a bouncer our friend Leti let us borrow recently, and although he hasn't quite figured out how to bounce in it yet, he enjoys standing in it and playing with the toys on the bouncer. He still adores his playmat as well, and will coo and squeal while pulling at the stuffed toys that hang above him.

He's quite the little chatter box lately! He does his best to converse with Martin and I all the time, and it's the cutest. He just wants to be able to talk so badly! I'll post a video of him at the bottom of the blog,  of one of his chat sessions with his daddy, being adorable ;)

Probably one of the funniest quirks about him, is how he responds to people who say hi to him and try to get him to smile. You know those friendly babies, who smile at everyone and make them feel special? Elliott doesn't know what that is, and he couldn't care less. Whenever someone tries to get a smile out of him, he just stares at them. Stone cold. Serious business. He lights up whenever he sees Martin and I, but everyone else really has to put some work in to get him to crack a smile! It's hilarious and sad all at the same time. He's such a happy guy, but you wouldn't know it from how he responds to others who try to get a giggle out of him ;)

At the beginning of October last year, I found out I was pregnant. It was after having 4 different dreams that night of taking a pregnancy test and finding it to be positive, that I decided to take a pregnancy test when I got up. In my half asleep state, I waited out of curiosity to see if my subconscious knew more than I did, and lo and behold, the positive sign showed up and I screamed "MARTIN GET IN HERE!"He probably thought I sliced an artery shaving from how I yelled. Instead of some kind of cutesy way of telling him I was pregnant, I just stared at him with a deer-in-the-headlights look, and motioned towards the stick on the counter, and then he matched my facial expression and just said "really?!" We were both shocked, excited, nervous, and unsure what to do next. I kept saying "I can't believe I'm really pregnant! What do we do now?!" It was such a special, chaotic moment and a wonderful memory to look back on now. My first time ever finding out I was pregnant, our first time ever sharing in the thrill of the news together, and our first time realizing our family was expanding beyond just us two. In those moments, I only dreamed of what that little baby would become, and my dreams were nowhere near as wonderful as the reality of Elliott. He is a gift that I thank God for every day.

Now that my sappy-ness is out of the way, it's time for some 4 month old updates for our little man!


Currently, Elliott enjoys:
- Chatting with mommy and daddy
- Sitting in his bumbo chair
- getting his diaper changed, which is probably because he loves . . .
- being naked
- grabbing his toes
- post-bath massages
first time in the pool! 

he couldn't care less for:
- suctioning his nose (poor little guy has some congestion lately)
- getting dressed
- when mommy walks out of the room

Love our little butterball! Here's his chatty video :)

Friday, September 19, 2014

Baby Elliott: 3 Months!


Elliott turned 3 months on the 15th, so technically he's a few days beyond, but my baby boy already feels like he's growing too fast for me to keep up! In the last couple of days alone, he has gotten too long for his co-sleeper and lays in it, kicking the end til he falls asleep - which is adorable in its own right, but a sure sign its time for the crib. le sigh. He is also too chubby for his 3 month old clothes and needs to move to the next size up, and has hit all kinds of milestones this last month:
he's grasping things on his own,
he's sitting up in his bumbo chair,
he sleeps 8-10 hours a night typically (hallelujah!),
he holds himself up steadily while on his tummy,
and even yesterday starting trying to get into a crawling position! WHAT?! how?!?
biggest belly ever? Probably. 

I both love and loathe that my baby is getting bigger. I love that he is so smiley, and giggles and interacts with Martin and I all the time. I don't know if there's a sweeter feeling than seeing your itty bitty baby light up when they look at you. But I also get that sad, weepy feeling when I look at him and realize my baby looks like a proper baby now; no more newborn, no more curled little fists and toes all the time. He's growing up right before my eyes and I'm still afraid of missing it.

I've always struggled with being present. I'm such a forward-thinker and a daydreamer that I can get so caught up in where I would like to be, I miss out on what God has for me right now often. I am learning the richness of being present with Elliott these days. From those first moments after his birth in the hopsital, to those extra early 3 AM wake up calls, to those catastrophic poop explosions that are just mind-boggling and Martin and I refer to as "poopocalypse". Those moments were crazy and blurry and emotionally draining, but I wanted to soak them all in as much as I would his precious little baby coos and fits of giggles when daddy tickles him with his beard.
He has the best facial expressions!

I'm also learning that this whole being present thing requires me to desperately rely on Jesus. And I mean desperately. The days where Elliott is cranky and fussy and won't let me put him down, even though I had plans to finally vacuum and write in his baby book (such lofty goals), I have to pray and ask God to give me grace to find joy in those tired & drained moments. Something is upsetting my little guy, Lord knows what, and the only thing that is comforting in that moment is being right next to mama and snuggling close. So I'll sacrifice my desire to have a clean house that looks like we don't even live here, and remind myself that it is a privilege and a great responsibility to represent Christ's love & grace towards my boy, even in these early days. And even in those days where I am feeling miserable and mopy and Elliott turns into a poop volcano and errupts all over me and the nursing pillow, and I call Martin in tears because there is poop EVERYWHERE and I just don't know how to process what just happened or what to do next. That happened this week. And that was poopocalypse number two, for those of you keeping count. Joys of motherhood, ya'll!

On to Elliott's 3 Month old tidbits!

Currently, Elliott enjoys:
- sitting in his bumbo chair
- playing on his playmat (still, by far, his favorite solo activity)
- being tickled by daddy's beard
- being naked (it's risky business letting this one happen!)
- being outside (when it's not 99 degrees out)
- squealing and discovering different sounds he can make
- his crinkly giraffe
- bath time
- hanging out in a baby carrier
- laughing at mommy when she makes weird noises & faces (sometimes I don't know if he's mocking me or thinks I'm hilarious . . . but I'll do anything to make that baby laugh!)

Elliott couldn't care less for:
- his car seat (still hates it, but it's getting slightly better, so there is hope!)
- getting dressed
- when bath time ends
- when he has gas

Clearly, his likes outweigh his dislikes, so we have a generally happy baby, which I'm thankful for! And finally, an adorable video of Elliott being the cutest baby in the world.